Today the doctor made me feel like a junkie.
I have been in pain for a little over a month now. I have minor, burning lower back pain that is always there. It’s a constant. I also have sharp shooting pain coming out of my hip joints and running down the outside of both legs. The pain gets a lot worse when I stop moving, as in stand still or sit down. Which is the worst because I can’t get comfortable. I can’t relax. I went to a chiropractor, and before you all boo hoo on chiropractors I usually have good luck with them, but I didn’t like this particular chiro. I felt like he was dismissing my pain and he wasn’t helping. I had a massage which felt really nice and gave me some pain relief for about a week or so, but I can’t afford $75 every week to try to have some pain relief. So I talked to our school nurse about what kind of doctor I should start with to try to find out what was wrong with me. She happens to be married to a chiropractor so she called him to see what he thought. He thought that I have a ruptured/herniated/slipped disk in my lower back and said that the first chiropractor should have caught it right away. The only way to definitely diagnose it is with an MRI. A chiro can’t order an MRI for me because insurance won’t cover it. So I had to try to find a regular doctor who could squeeze me in as soon as possible (because the pain is definitely getting worse and definitely interfering with my sleep and my job). And of course since I’m not a regular patient with anyone, trying to get into a doctor quickly was not in the cards. But I did get lucky. Noah’s doctor squeezed me in on Monday. She generally agreed with the chiro’s diagnosis and ordered x-rays and an MRI. The x-rays came back fairly normal. I apparently have a bone growth in my hip which may or may not be a problem. The MRI is scheduled for Sunday morning. She also prescribed me a muscle relaxer and some prescription strength anti-inflammatory. I took a muscle relaxer at 9:00 pm and I was a mess and definitely not able to function at work the next day. So the next night I took a half of a muscle relaxer. With that one I could function at work the next day, but I didn’t get any pain relief. I called the doctor today to see if I could get something for my pain like Darvocet (which I have taken before and I know I can handle). One of her nurses called back and said in a nasty tone of voice, “We don’t like to prescribe narcotics for patients without an office visit. Would you like to make an appointment for Monday?” I explained to her that I already have an appointment for Monday and if I felt like my pain could wait until Monday I wouldn’t have called. Her reply? “Sorry. You’ll have to wait for Monday.” Seriously biotch? I am sick and tired of being in pain. It’s constant. I can’t sit down and relax and I can’t sleep without pain. I’m a horrible witch to my students b/c I’m either in pain or a drugged haze and I’m starting to take it out on Noah. I feel like I can’t make it through the weekend. I hung up and wanted to cry. I’m not a freakin’ junkie. I don’t sell drugs or buy drugs from people on the street. I’m not addicted. I’m in pain and I don’t wan to be anymore. Why do doctors have to make us feel like we’re worthless piles of poo? Just because I didn’t want to go to med school doesn’t mean that I’m making up symptoms and not worth your time! Argh!