hmmm…

Some thoughts I’ve had in 2009…

*While I like the idea of being a mommy, I don’t think I would like the reality.

*My friend is handling being a mommy MUCH better than I thought she would…she hasn’t gone crazy yet!

*I need to have more sex with my husband.  He would agree.

*I actually *gasp* like running.  I do.  I like it.  I’m not a long distance runner by any means, but I am running an average of 10 to 15 miles per week and I like it.

*My family thinks I need to gain more weight…I disagree.

*Numbers on the scale mean a lot.

*Even after losing 26 pounds, I still see myself as a 8/10 instead of the 2/4 that I currently am.

*4 martinis + no dinner = massive amounts of puking.

*Sushi = yummy unless you’re hungover, then it = gross.

*My parents disappoint me.

*I’m starting to realize that I’m a grownup.  I got excited about the fact that my parents got us an Ice Cream Maker for Christmas.  Thin Mint ice cream anyone?  mmmm….

*2010 will be a good year.  Whatever it may bring.

more thoughts to come…at not such a late hour… 🙂

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Think good thoughts

Brandy was one of the first blogs that I read.  One of the first people I “connected” with over the internet.  A fun and spunky girl who teaches and understands the life of a teacher?  Amazing.  She needs our thoughts and prayers.  If you can repost it, please do.

My name is brandy. And I have a blog.

And a plea.

I use my blog to showcase the crazy I meet everyday, share the stories of the kids I teach and document my love for tequila, dairy products and the abdominal muscles of Ryan Reynolds. Rarely do I talk about personal issues on my blog- as personal as the dude that I adore (who I actually met through my blog- single ladies, let that be a very good reason to blog, the possibility of meeting someone as wonderful as my man), but I need your help. And it involves my dude.

He’s a guy who made math comics for my class, so they would love learning about addition. He’s the kinda guy who sends my friends gift cards when they are having hard times, who remembers every story I ever told him, who was the first person I celebrated with when I got a teaching job. He’s the guy who sent flowers to me at school- dozens of my favourite pink roses just because he loves me. He’s a guy who has spent a year patiently explaining (and re-explaining) everything there is to know about football during the important games when silence is preferred. He’s made me word puzzles and comics and stayed up late playing Scrabble with me (even though I beat him almost every time). He’s listened to me cry about school and family and jobs. He is everything I never knew I needed and everything I always knew I wanted.

The holidays have hit us hard. He’s recently been told he may have something called multiple myeloma- an incurable cancer, that gives a person an average of five years of continued life. Though this news has came as a shock, he continues to be exactly who has always been- spending his time worrying about me, rather than worrying about himself. He’s the most selfless individual I know- (he stayed late on Christmas Eve to work, so his co-workers could leave early) and a post like this would never be something that he would promote or encourage but when I’m overwhelmed and feeling helpless, the blogging community has always given me tremendous support and comfort, two things I desperately need at this time.

As I write this, the future is uncertain and we aren’t sure what’s happening. He’ll need to see an oncologist soon, to verify what’s going on in his body. My hope is that everyone who reads this think positive thoughts and if you are a person who prays, could you add him to your list? (You can refer to him as ‘brandy’s hot awesome dude’). If you don’t pray, please keep him in your heart.This cancer is only a possibility and I believe that the prayers and positive thoughts of people can make sure it never becomes a reality.

I want to give a big thank you to the blog owner who scraped their original blog plans and graciously put this up. My goal is to get as many people as possible to see and read this post. If you are reading this and want to help, copy and paste my plea into your blog or send a link through twitter, so more people can keep him in their thoughts. I would be so very grateful (even more grateful than I am to my friend who first showed me the picture of Ryan Reynolds on the cover of Entertainment Weekly. If you haven’t seen it, google it. You. Are. Welcome).

I realize this all sounds dramatic, a Lifetime movie in the making- but this is life. Right now. And I’m throwing away any hint of ego and am humbly asking for you to pray or think kind thoughts. If you are able to pass this on, thank you and if you know anything regarding MM- please email me (my email is on my blog). This isn’t a call for sympathy or a plea for pity. It’s just one girl hoping you can think positive thoughts for the person she adores. If my current heartache provides you with anything, let it be with the reminder that life is short, love is unbending and no one knows what could happen next. Maybe it is silly, but I really do believe that positive thoughts can make a huge difference. Thank you for reading this and if you haven’t already? Please tell someone you love them today.

I did.

I did it!

I’m home at my parent’s house for the holiday. It’s kind of boring here. So I dragged out some knitting I haven’t touched in MONTHS. Long long months. I finished Noah’s hat last night and knitted a pink hat for my friend Kelly today. Woot for getting things accomplished instead of playing multiple hours of DSi like Noah.

Merry Christmas!

So fresh and so clean clean

When winter break begins, I always feel like I can accomplish anything.  Except yesterday.  Yesterday I was a grumpy scrooge.

Today tho?

Today I can do it all!  We got up at 8 am and I trudged to the gym.  I did a 9:30 spin class.  Boy you better get there early if you want a seat.  I got there at 9:10 and I got the last seat!  But it felt good.  I kicked butt and I felt (and still do feel) good.  We came home and made lunch.  Then we started on the candy.  My grandma was talking about a toffee cracker candy.  So we did that.  And I made peppermint fudge from this gal, except I put chocolate ganache on top.  Mmmm chocolate ganache.  All of the Christmas presents have been purchased and all but one are wrapped and under the tree.  We got my husband’s computer fixed and now I’m on hold with Norton trying to figure out how to download the anti-virus software we paid for. Oh and I also already made dinner.  We’re taking it over to our friend’s house.  They had their new baby boy at home Thursday and I figured they could use some free food 🙂  Already prepared.  I’m on a roll….Life is good.  Two weeks off?  Definitely.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Hmmm…

I’m trying to get back into the swing of blogging.  There are loads of things on my mind.  Some of them are work related, and I can’t blog about them.  Many of them are baby related and…honestly?  I’m so freakin’ tired of hearing about babies and pregnancy that I could scream.  It’s something that I want someday.  Not right now.  Right now I enjoy being able to spend my money however I want.  I enjoy staying up late if I want or going to bed early.  I enjoy making last minute plans.  I enjoy being able to get drunk if I want.  I enjoy the fact that I can watch TV without a screaming baby or an annoying toddle interrupting my viewing pleasure.  But I still somehow manage to feel like a failure because we don’t have a kid and we’re not trying to have a kid.  It’s a huge pressure on our relationship.  I’m surrounded by babies and pregnant people and I freaking hate it.  Ugh.

I did it!

This morning, in the rain and a temperature of 35 degrees, I successfully ran a 4 mile race at Sharon Woods Metro Park. I did not walk, not even up the really big hill. Noah and I finished in 42:30. That’s less than an 11 minute mile pace. We ran mile one in 9:30. I’ve never ran anything that fast before in my life!

Also of note this weekend:
Friday was the Firm Holiday Party. I drank far too much at the open bar. Noah had to pull over 5 times for me to throw up on the way home. 5 times people. Martinis = yummy but also = bad when you haven’t had any dinner. I spent most of Saturday recovering.
Saturday we drove down to Cincy to celebrate Noah’s sister’s birthday. We had sushi. Note to self, sushi is NOT the best idea when you’re hungover. Came back home to a family inhabiting our living room. Watched the UFC fight with some friends and their two kids. I totally tricked the two year old into going to bed. I rock. Didn’t get to bed until after 1 am but STILL managed to rock my race today.

So in all, a really good weekend. I rocked my race. I had a GREAT time at the holiday party. The band was awesome. Saturday was fun minus the crying baby. Back to work on Monday but I only have to work for one more week then it’s Christmas Break!

OHHHH! AND! My principal gave me a really positive review for my first announced observation. Woot!

And PPS? I’m down to 126. Lowest weight ever. My family says I need to eat more. I say screw you! I’m eating healthy and I’m working out. I’m feeling good.

Well Crap

Hello?

I think everyone who read my blog ran away 😦 Probably because I don’t really post anymore…

Well I finished my final project for the 4/5th grade endorsement to add to my license. Done. Fine. I passed. Now I need to figure out if I care enough to take the Praxis, or if I’m going to wait it out.

I put in my cover letter to be considered for the Superintendent’s Stipend Opportunity. If you can prove that your students have made growth for the last two years, then you can throw your name in the ring to be considered for a $4,000 stipend. The catch is that you have to also agree to be “placed at the superintendent’s discretion.” That means you’ll be placed in a “high needs” school. This is the first year for the program and there wasn’t a lot of information. Unfortunately, my school will probably be closing at the end of this school year so I was going to have to change schools anyways. Why not take the opportunity to be placed where I’m really needed and make and extra $4k? Also, I think I’m going to apply for the Leadership Intern (principal) program with the district. Since only 37 teachers applied for the stipend opportunity, it will look great on my resume and put my name in a positive light in the superintendent’s mind. Win win I say. Of course I say that now….ask me again next year 🙂

Overall things are going good. I’m down below my goal weight. I’m running at least 10 miles per week. Last weekend Noah tricked me into running 6.5 miles instead of 4 so…while it sucked, at least I know that I am capable of running it. 6 miles was my ultimate, not running any further than this goal and I guess I already achieved that…Noah and I are considering doing a couple duathleons next summer. Maybe a bit of traveling involved. My cousins live in Amsterdam right now and they offered for us to stay in their apartment this summer rent free while they are back in the states. So we’re trying to figure out how to get the money together to do that. Talk about a once in a lifetime experience!

And….I love the holidays, I love candy, I love decorations. Things are good. How are you y’all? If y’all are even still out there….